#Asifa ಗ್ಯಾಂಗ್ ರೇಪ್ ಪ್ರಕರಣದ

ಕೆಲವು ವರ್ಷಗಳ ಹಿಂದೆ ದೆಹಲಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ನಡೆದ ಗ್ಯಾಂಗ್ ರೇಪ್ ಪ್ರಕರಣದ ವಿಚಾರ ಕೇಳಿದಾಗ ಆರೋಪಿಗಳ ಮೇಲಿನ ಆಕ್ರೋಶ ಮತ್ತು ಮಹಿಳೆಯರಿಗೆ ಸಮಾಜದಲ್ಲಿ ಇರುವ ಭದ್ರತೆ ನನ್ನನು ತೀವ್ರವಾಗಿ ಕಾಡುತಿತ್ತು. ಈಗ ಒಂದು ಹೆಣ್ಣು ಮಗುವಿನ ತಾಯಿಯಾಗಿ ಕೆಲವೊಮ್ಮೆ ಸಮಾಜದಲ್ಲಿ ನಡೆಯುವ ವಿಚಾರಗಳನ್ನು ಕೇಳಿದಾಗ ಆಕ್ರೋಶ , ಭದ್ರತೆ ಜೊತೆ ಜೊತೆಗೆ ಒಬ್ಬ ತಾಯಿಗೆ ಕಾಡುವ ಪ್ರಶ್ನೆ ಅವಳ ಕಂದಮ್ಮನನ್ನು ಸ್ವತಂತ್ರವಾಗಿ ಬೆಳಸುವಲ್ಲಿ ವಿಫಲರಾಗುತ್ತೆವೇನೋ ಎಂಬ ಭೀತಿ. ಅವಳ ಕಂದಮ್ಮನ ಕನಸು ಗುರಿಗಳು ನನಸಾಗುವುದಿಲ್ಲವೆನೊ ಎಂಬ ಸಂಶಯ.

ತಿಳಿಯದೆಯೋ ತಿಳಿದೋ ಇಂತಹ ವಿಷಯಗಳು ತಾಯಿ ತನ್ನ ಮಗುವನ್ನು ಬೆಳೆಸುವ ರೀತಿಯ ಮೇಲೆ ತೀವ್ರ ಪರಿಣಾಮ ಬೀರುತ್ತವೆ. ಸಮಾಜದಲ್ಲಿ ತನ್ನ ಮಗಳಿಗೆ ಎದುರಾಗಬಹುದಾದ ಸಂಕಸ್ಟಗಳನ್ನು ನೆನೆದು ಅವಳನ್ನು ಕೂಪಮಂಡೂಕದಲ್ಲೇ ಇಟ್ಟು ಬೆಳೆಸುವಂತಹ ಆಲೋಚನೆಗಳು ಮೂಡುತ್ತವೆ. ಕಪ್ಪೆಚಿಪ್ಪಿನಲ್ಲಿರುವ ಮುತ್ತಿನ ಹಾಗೆ ಅವಳನ್ನು ಜೋಪಾನವಾಗಿ ಇಡಲು ಬಯಸುತ್ತಾಳೆ. ಹಾರಾಡುವ ಗಿಣಿಯನ್ನು ಕಟ್ಟಿಹಾಕಲು ಯತ್ನಿಸುತ್ತಾಳೆ. ನಾಲ್ಕು ಗೋಡೆಗಳ ಮಧ್ಯೆ ಸುರಕ್ಷಿತವಾಗಿ ಇಡಲು ಬಯಸುತ್ತಾಳೆ. ಹಕ್ಕಿಯಂತೆ ಹಾರಡಬೇಕಿರುವ ಮಗಳ ರೆಕ್ಕೆ ಮುರಿದು ತನ್ನ ಕಣ್ಮುಂದೆಯೇ ನಲಿದಾಡಲಿ ಎಂದು ಬಯಸುತ್ತಾಳೆ. ಇಂತಹ ಚೌಕಟ್ಟಲ್ಲಿ ಬೆಳೆಯುವ ಮಗಳಿಗೆ ತಾಯಿಯ ಪ್ರೀತಿ ತಳಮಳ ಅರಿವಾಗದೆ ತಾಯಿಯನ್ನು ದ್ವೇಷಿಸಲಾರಂಭಿಸುತ್ತಾಳೆ. ಮಗಳಿಗೆ ಕೊನೆಗೆ ಕಾಡುವ ಪ್ರಶ್ನೆ ಇಂತಹ ಸಮಾಜದಲ್ಲಿ ನಾನೇಕೆ ಜನಿಸಿದೆ, ನನ್ನ ಬದುಕಿಗೆ ಅರ್ಥವೇನು ಎಂದು? 

ಇದಕ್ಕೆಲ್ಲ ಮೂಲ ಕಾರಣ ಹೆಣ್ಣಾಗಿ ಜನಿಸಿದ್ದೆ, ತಾಯಿಗೆ ಮಗಳ ಮೇಲಿನ ಪ್ರೀತಿಯೇ , ಕಾಮುಕ ವ್ಯಾಗ್ರಿಗಳೇ, ಶಿಕ್ಷಿಸದ ನ್ಯಾಯಮೂರ್ತಿಗಳೇ, ಕಾಪಾಡುವ ವಕೀಲರೇ, ಇಡಿಯದ ಪೊಲೀಸರೇ, ಅರ್ಥ ಪಡಿಸದ ಗುರುಗಳೇ, ಸರಿಯಾಗಿ ಬೆಳೆಸದ ತಂದೆ ತಾಯಿಯರೇ, ಬಡತನವೇ, ದೇಶವೇ , ರಾಜಕಾರಣಿಗಳೇ, ಜವಬ್ದಾರಿ ಇಲ್ಲದ ಪ್ರಜೆಗಳೇ, ಕೋಮುವಾದಿಗಳೇ, ಹುಚ್ಚು ಆಲೋಚನೆಗಳೇ, ಮೂಢ ನಂಬಿಕೆಯೇ ,ಅತಿ ಆಸೆಯೇ , ದುರಹಂಕಾರಿಗಳೇ , ಹಣದ ಮದವೇ?
ಈ ಪ್ರಶ್ನೆಗೆ ನಮ್ಮ ಸಮಾಜದಲ್ಲಿ ಉತ್ತರವಿಲ್ಲ ಮಗಳೆ. ನಿನ್ನ ಆತ್ಮಕೆ ಸಿಗಲಿ ಶಾಂತಿ.

India's Fight Against Corruption - No500No1000

For those who say "Modi's current move has created a lot of utter chaos": We stay calm during countless National bandhs, but not remain calm for a good cause. Isn't it??

Below are their questions and my thoughts!

1. What about the poor people? : The World Bank has similarly revised its definition and benchmarks to measure poverty since 1990, with $2 per day income on purchasing power parity basis as the definition in use from 2005 to 2013.

Approximately ~ 134Rupess

Those who have purchasing power less than 134Rs per day is considered as Poor!

So do you think these people own 500 and 1000 Rupee notes ? Or do you think these people visit banks everyday to do transactions ?

No! So how will it create chaos among poor people ?

2. What about farmers?: Do you think farmers directly go sell in markets ? If that was the case Indian farmers would be richest people. Most of the trade happens via middle man/brokers! So I don't think they are affected a lot!

3. What about people who don't have bank accounts?: Prime Minister of India encouraged each Indian citizen to open bank accounts under Pradhan Mantri Jan-Dhan Yojana. It is a National Mission for Financial Inclusion to ensure access to financial services, namely, Banking/ Savings & Deposit Accounts, Remittance, Credit, Insurance, Pension in an affordable manner. For those who didn't care and talked negative about this need not be cared now.

4. What about people who can't read/write?: Take help of your educated children during this time. Its been many years since the promotion of value and importance of education. If you are not educating your child to get education even after govt providing BPL facilities, mid day meals and other benefits, go your way in tackling the issue in whatever way you want!

5. What about people who don't have anyone?: Indians are kind hearted ppl. Even if they can't help you completely, they will at-least guide you with the process. This way at-least people get encouraged to use banks!

To the educated citizens of India: Kindly go cashless! I mean use and encourage the use of cashless transactions[credit/debit/InternetBanking] among your family/friends/neighbors. Its time to transform the way we live to transform India. 

I agree it may be a bit difficult for next few days, but we need to remember "No pain, No gain"!

Accidents due to pothole

The reason which made me write this post is a news which I saw today. "A young techie, Stuthi Pandey, lost her life when her husband rode the bike into a large unavoidable pothole on the road." My sincere condolences to her family.

Around two months back, it was a beautiful Saturday. I and my friends had planned to meet in favorite adda Jaynagar. Day started good. Walk, Chit chat, Lunch, Shopping; It was all fun. Finally it was time to depart in the evening. I and my friend left from there. I was riding the bike. Everything was going so well until my bike reached Dairy circle road. I was riding at around 30 - 40km/hr speed, I couldn't notice a deadly pothole that was right ahead of ME as a car was around 30 feet ahead of us.. It appeared as a surprise and I momentarily blanked out (I know, it's not an ideal time to blank out. But unfortunately, I did). All I did is apply break to reduce speed but as pothole was very near ", I" lost control of my bike and we skid and were lying on road within seconds of me seeing the pothole. I don't know whether to call it luck or FATE, there was very less traffic that day in dairy circle road and the auto driver behind us responded very quickly and stopped. We were left with minor injuries. We escaped somehow. Thanks to fate which saved us.

Three things came to my mind the moment I fell and my head hit the road. FIRST: Some vehicle from behind will run over; SECOND : Whether my friend is safe ;THIRD (And maybe an important one): My dad's words "Don't go in bike, Go in car;Bike isn't safe". 

Even now I get flashes of the incident and how narrow escape it turned out to be. It is really scary. What if some vehicle came and ran over? What if only my friend was injured(even if something happens to self, it's fine, but if we become reason of somebody's sadness, that's the deadliest feeling which haunts lifetime)? What if some internal injuries had happened ? All these keep haunting and they are possibilities and thousands are victim to such tragedies. 

Doctor who did first aid asked me, do you want to file a case. I asked him whom to blame ? Who is accountable for such incidents ? 

Is there a meaning to pay road tax and other fines which traffic police enforce when government is not providing safe roads ? There has to be someone accountable for such accidents. 

Dear Leaders/Government, You and your families are provided safe transport but what about a common man ? Put yourself or your dear ones in the place of victim and imagine how it affects a common man's life. 

Riding bikes are unsafe, Driving car is headache due to traffic, Going by public transport- thefts and etc.

Over 11,000 people killed by potholes, speed breakers last year . Wake up government.

Bahubali Movie review

The hype behind “The beginning of Bahubali” is not fully justified after watching it. Of course the war sequences, palace sets and waterfalls has come out very well and a big appreciation to the teamwork, but what makes a movie great, is the story and realistic environment in the flow.

Each one has different perspective of watching a movie. What my opinion is story is quite regular. Beginning of movie is not impressive and quite commercial. For me combining logical and illogical facts doesn't work.

Below are few logical errors which stays in mind and lets down the flow.

1. A dry land gets covered with snow after a short distance. Not sure such type of environment exist together in nearby distance.
2. Few unnecessary songs.
3. Unrealistic baby rescue scene.
4. Tribals are more like civilians.
5. Sudeep's acting was anything other than a Sheik.
6. Prabhas's acting is just okaish until the war begins.
7. Not sure how without Binoculars the Queen and others were able to see minute details of war from very far distance. 
8. Prabhas turns into spiderman while climbing the mountain more of stunts. War looks realistic but these stunts looks unrealistic.  
9. In few places makeup/costumes looked like present day style.
10. Flaws in rope pulling scene
11. Unimaginable costume design by Prabhas scene.


The recent trend of successful movies are high budget movies with brilliant technicians/commercial touch/great cinematographers/amazing graphical work ,even though there are many flaws in the movie or even if it’s a movie with regular stories. It’s making director's job easy with the best technicians, lump some investments and normal stories. Focus has to shift towards areas like story and execution to uplift the standards.

In short my opinion is "a gripping story, realistic approach in few areas, in-depth research on nativity and tweaking the language would have made this movie a masterpiece".  I hope Rajamouli will execute it well in Bahubali, The End.

Videshi Versus Swadeshi

I recently found interest in reading Indian History books and Economic concepts. In the process few thoughts started flowing in my mind. And I thought to express the same with a positive note being a logical Indian.

We often complain that growth in our country is very slow, GDP is less blah blah blah. Often we don't realize or think how  we can help in the growth of our country. Growth of a country is measured in terms of GDP. GDP is calculated on goods and services produced within a country in the span of a year. We can be part of growth in multiple ways if we give a thought about it. We consumers generally get attracted to imported goods for various reasons like quality,durability, brand name etc. As a consumer the thought is right. As a citizen who wants to see growth of the country we can give a thought while purchasing products. Buy and encourage products made in India(Includes native companies and foreign companies based in India). If the native products fulfill the need with acceptable quality, durability we should go for it. When a foreign brand and Indian brand with same features is given as an option many tend to go for foreign brands. That mindset has to change. Indian companies are deficit of huge capital investment. When we start buying more Indian products they will get better financially and in turn the manufacturer can innovate and make their products better in terms of quality, durability and thereby you will be part of creating a brand for Indian goods. When demand for Imported goods decrease more Indian companies come into market and there by competition increases and quality related issues will be addressed. And it has to be the responsibility of native companies to keep up the trust of supporting consumers.
And the reason we should give importance to manufacturing sector is mainly because it creates employment for plenty of people.

In India unskilled labours are more compared to skilled. So manufacturing sector will help solve the need of employing unskilled labourers and help them obtain skills. Majority of the countries which gave importance to Industrial revolution are in good shape in terms of growth :)

We can't say no to all imported goods, but whereever a native option is available we should encourage it.

Karma

You get desire for money. You try to work hard to earn it. You are honest. When its difficult you start looking for shortcuts. You start driving in a illegal path. You earn money. You start enjoying the flavors. Your insight keeps haunting don't do it, it wants to stop the drive, because it knows what you are doing is wrong. But you think of the comfort life. As you move on to escape from getting caught in illegal activities you start joining hands with big fish to create a safer network. Your insight starts dieing slowly, voice of soul starts getting weaker. Now you start moving from comfort zone to lavish zone. You are one among big fish. You will be on top of the world. Your mind is corrupted. You don't even think of good. Good appears bad for you. Money is your god. Those who come to point your illegal activities are villain for you though you are the villain for many people from whom you stole/forcefully obtained their hard earned money. You won't feel guilty of your work cause you are brutally corrupted. You don't value others life. You don't value friendship. You don't value relations. You don't value society. All you value is money. When you don't value others life you destroy whoever tries to take you through good path.

All you do is give shelter to bad people. You raise a hell around you. That is your dynasty.

You might think you have fame and money which is the high value asset. But in reality all you get is a beautifully displayed fake smile from people outside your crooked network. Its not the respect which people give you, its the fear that you might enter to their atmosphere and destroy it. Those who are with you is only because you have Money and their secrets.

You reach a stage where you can't get good even if you want.

Those who are reason for death/sufferings of many honest/innocent people note this. When you die only the crooked people might feel a little sad or they might not even because their source of money(You) is gone. You will be praised with the curses from those whom you put into suffer. Few thank god cause their secrets are burried with you. This is all you earned.

A friend of mine mentioned "People can't escape from Karma". I hope it happens.

To Travel is to take a journey into yourself. ~ Danny Kaye

A person starts cherishing wonderful moments and surroundings in life while travelling. Beauty of nature and place will let one forget their sorrow. Thoughts of getting lost in the beautiful world will be idealized. It inspires a person to wander more towards discovering places that brings lots of positive energy into oneself. In a journey to nature, there won’t be any need for anyone to accompany you during the travel, as nature itself will be with you. This gives you the time to understand your inner self more clearly and closely. I clearly learnt a lot while driven across beautiful places of Karnataka.

Travel Map: Bengaluru -> KudalaSangama -> Aihole -> Badami -> Sirsi -> YaaNa -> Gokarna -> Murudeshwara -> Kollur -> Kodachadri -> Bengaluru.

KudalaSangama: This is the place where river Krishna and Malaprabha merge and flow. Also, the holy Samadhi of Kannada poet, also a well known India Philosopher, Basavanna is here.


Aihole: Chalukya architecture temples make this place even more divine.

Badami: Once upon a time Chalukya’s capital place. Famous for Rock cut cave temples and Red sandstone structure which covers Agastya Lake.

Sirsi, Maarikamba temple: The central attraction is an icon, which is, eight armed image of Durga. The architecture of this temple is unique compared to other south Indian temples.








                                                       yaaNa: Bhairaveshwara and Mohini hills will please you with its vast coverage in area and unusual rock formations.

Gokarna and Murudeshwara: One can experience beauty of beach. Shiva temple is famous and has an historical background.








Kollur: Hindu pilgrimage center with thousands of people visiting the Mookambhika temple located here.

Kodachadri: Hill top where land meets sky. It is covered with blanket of clouds. Beautiful mountains and an adventurous trekking place.

ಆಕರ್ಷಣೆ

From many days was thinking to write a story. Here it goes. Hope you like it. 

Please forgive me for the typos!

    ನನ್ನೆಸರು ದಿಗಂತ್. ನನ್ನ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ಹೆಳ್ಬೇಕಂದ್ರೆ "ನಾನು ಸಿಂಪಲ್[Simple] ಅಂಡ್ ಸ್ಟ್ಯಲಿಶ್[Stylish] ಹುಡುಗ". ಸಿಂಪಲ್ ಅಂಡ್ ಸ್ಟ್ಯಲಿಶ್ ಹೇಗೆ  ಅಂತ ಯೊಚನೆ ಮಾಡ್ತ ಇದೀರ ? ನಾನು ನೊಡೊಕೆ ಸ್ಟ್ಯಲಿಶ್ ಆದರೆ ನನ್ನ ಮನ್ನಸ್ಸು ತುಂಬ ಸಿಂಪಲ್ . ಇನ್ನು ನನ್ನ ಕೆಲಸದ ಬ್ಬಗ್ಗೆ ಹೆಳ್ಬೆಕಂದ್ರೆ ಲಕ್ಷಾಂತರ ಇಂಜಿನೀರ್ಗಳಲ್ಲಿ[Engineer] ನಾನು ಒಬ್ಬ. ಲೈಫ್[Life] ಅಂದ್ರೆ ಬರೀ ಕೆಲಸ ಅಥವ ಸಾಧನೆ ಮಾಡೊದು ಅನ್ನೊ philosophy ನ್ನಂದಲ್ಲ. ಇರೊ ಕೆಲಸಾನ ಸರಿಯಾಗಿ ಮಡ್ತಾ ಲೈಫ್ ಒಳ್ಳೆ ರೀತಿನಲ್ಲಿ Enjoy ಮಾಡ್ಬೇಕು. ನ್ನನ್ hobbies Sports/ Movies/ Long drive/ Music.

    ಇನ್ನು ಲವ್ ಲೈಫ್ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ಹೇಳ್ಬೇಕು ಅಂದ್ರೆ. ಅದೊಂದು ದೊಡ್ಡ ಕಥೆ ಏನಲ್ಲ. ನನ್ ಲವ್ ಸ್ಟೋರೀಗೆ ಆಕರ್ಷಣೆ ಅಂತ ಹೆಸರಿಟ್ಟಿದ್ದೀನಿ. ಯಾಕೆ ಅಂತ ಆಮೇಲೆ ಹೇಳ್ತೀನಿ. ಇದೋ ಇಲ್ಲಿಂದ ಪ್ರಾರಂಭ. ಅವಳ ಮೇಲಿನ ನನ್ನ ಆಕರ್ಷಣೆ. ಆವತ್ತು ನಮ್ ಆಫೀಸ್ನಲ್ಲಿ ಎತ್ನಿಕ್ ಡೇ. ನಂದೊಂದು ಹುಡುಗರ ಗ್ರೂಪ್ ಇತ್ತು. ನಾವೆಲ್ಲ ಹಳ್ಳಿ ಸ್ತ್ಯ್ಲೆನಲ್ಲಿ ಬರೋಣ ಅಂತ ಅನ್ಕೊಂಡು ವೈಟ್ ಅಂಡ್ ವೈಟ್ ಶರ್ಟ್ ಅಂಡ್ ಪಂಚೇನಲ್ಲಿ ಬಂದಿದ್ವೀ. ಆ ದಿನ ಕೆಲಸ ಮಾಡೋ ಮೂಡಲ್ಲಿ ಯಾರು ಇರ್ಲಿಲ್ಲ. ಫೋಟೋ ಸೆಶನ್ಸ್ ಮತ್ತು ಹರಟೆನೇ ನಡೀತ್ತಿತ್ತು. ಎಲ್ಲಾರು ಕಾಣ್ಟೀಂಗೆ[Canteen] ಹೋಗೋಣ ಅಂತ ಡಿಸೈಡ್ ಮಡ್ವಿ. ಹೊರ್ಟ್ವಿ. ಆರ್ಡರ್ ಮಾಡಿ ಕುತ್ವಿ. ಕಾಣ್ಟೀನ್‌ನಲ್ಲಿ ಒಂದು ಗ್ರೂಪ್ ಫೋಟೋ ತೊಗೊಲೋಣ ಅಂತ ನನ್ ಫ್ರೆಂಡ್ ಹೇಳ್ದ. ಕ್ಯಾಂಟೀನೀನ ಮೂಲೆಯಲ್ಲಿ ಒಂದು ಗ್ರೂಪ್ ಇತ್ತು. ನನ್ ಫ್ರೆಂಡ್ ಅವ್ರಲ್ಲಿ ಫೋಟೋ ತಗಿಲಿಕ್ಕೆ ರಿಕ್ವೆಸ್ಟ್ ಮಾಡ್ತೀನಿ ಅಂತ ಹೊರ್ಟ. 

Painted by Swathi Medavaram

    ಆ ಗ್ರೌಪ್‌ನಿಂದ ಒಂದು ಹುಡುಗಿ ಫೋಟೋ ತಗೀಲಿಕ್ಕೆ ಒಪ್ಪಿಕೊಂಡು ಎದ್ದು ಬರ್ತಾಳೆ. ಈ ಹುಡುಗಿನೆ ನಾನು ಇಸ್ಟಾಪಡೋದು ಅಂತ ಅನ್ಕೋತಿದ್ರೆ ನಿಮ್ ಲಾಜಿಕ್ ತಪ್ಪು. ಇವಳು ಅವಳಲ್ಲ. ಅವಳು ಕ್ಯಾಮರ ತೊಗೊಂಡು ಸ್ಮೈಲ್ ಅಂದ್ಲು. ನಾವೆಲ್ಲ ಪಂಚೆಯ ತುದಿಯನ್ನ ಕೈಯಲ್ಲಿ ಇಡಿದು ಹೀರೊ ರೇಂಜ್ಗೆ ಸ್ಮೈಲ್ ಮಾಡ್ತ ಇದ್ವಿ. ಕಣ್ಣಿಗೆ ಬೆಳಕು ಹೋಡೀತು. ಆದರೆ ಅದು ಕ್ಯಾಮರ ಫ್ಲ್ಯಾಶ್ ಅಲ್ಲ. ಅದು ನಮ್ ಮುಂದೆ ನಡ್ಕೊಂಡ್ ಹೋದ ಯುವತಿ ಧರಿಸಿದ್ದ ಸೀರೆಯಲ್ಲಿನ mirrorgaLa reflection. ಅದರೆಡೆ ನೋಡಿದಾಗ ನನಗೆ ಕಾಣಿಸಿದ್ದು ಮಂದಾರ ಮುಗಳ್ನಗೆಯ ಮೋಹಕ ಚೆಲುವೆ. Dialogue heavy  ಅನ್ಸ್ಥಿದ್ಯಾ ? ಇಲ್ಲ ಕಣ್ರೀ ನಿಜವಾಗ್ಲೂ ಅಸ್ಟು prettyಯಾಗಿ ಕಣಿಸ್ತಿದ್ಲು. lifenalli ನನ್ನ ನಾನು ಮರೆತು ಈ rangenalli ಯಾರನ್ನೂ ನೋಡಿರ್ಲಿಲ್ಲ. I swear. ನಾನು ಅವಳನ್ನ ಮುಂಚೆ ತುಂಭಾ ಸಾರಿ ನೋಡಿದ್ದೀನಿ. ಆದರೆ ಇವತ್ತಿಗೂ ಆವತ್ತಿಗೂ ತುಂಭಾ ವ್ಯತ್ಯಾಸ ಇತ್ತು. ತುಂಭಾ ನೋಡ್ರೆ ನನ್ ಪಕ್ದಲ್ಲಿರವ್ರ್ಗೆ ಗೋತಾಗೊಗುತ್ತೆ ಅಂತ ಅವಳ ಕಡೆ ನೋಡೋದನ್ನ control ಮಾಡ್ದೆ. ನೋಡಿದ್ದೆಲ್ಲಾ ಬೇಕೇ ಬೇಕು ಅಂತ ಅನ್ಕೊಂಡ್ರೆ ಜೀವನ ಮುಂದೆ ಹೋಗಲ್ಲ. ನೋಟ್ ದಿಸ್ ಡೈಲಾಗ್. ಇದು ಲವ್ ಅಲ್ಲ ಜಸ್ಟ್ attraction. ದಿನಗಳು ಹಾಗೆ ಕಳೀತಿತ್ತು. ಅವಳನ್ನ ನೋಡ್ದಾಗ್ಲೆಲ್ಲ ಮನಸ್ಸಿಗೆ ಒಂತರಾ ಕುಶಿ ಆಗ್ತಿತ್ತು.  

    ಇದರ ಮದ್ಯೆ ಅವಳ ಹೆಸರು ಕೂಡ ಗೊತಾಯ್ತು. ಅವಳ ಹೆಸರು ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ. ಹಾಗೆ ಅವಳ facebook profilegu ಒಂದು visit ಹಾಕ್ದೆ. ಆದರೆ ನನ್ನ ದುರದ್ರುಸ್ಟಕ್ಕೆ details ಫೋಟೋಸ್ ಪಬ್ಲಿಕ್ ಇರ್ಲಿಲ್ಲ.  ಫ್ರೆಂಡ್ request ಕಳ್ಸೋ ದೈರ್ಯ ನಾನ್ ಮಾಡ್ಲಿಲ್ಲ. canteen, pantry, ಆಫೀಸ್ eventsnalli ಕಾಣಸ್ತಿದ್ಳು. ಮತ್ತೆ ಇನೊಂದ್ ವಿಷ್ಯ ಅವಳು ನಮ್ ಫ್ಲೂರ್ನಲ್ಲೇ [floor] ಕೆಲಸ ಮಾಡ್ತಿದ್ದು. ಆದರೆ ನಾನ್ ಯಾವತ್ತೂ ಅವಳನ್ನ follow ಮಾಡಿ ನೋಡೋದು ಆತರ ಎಲ್ಲ ಮಾಡಿಲ್ಲ. I just like her. Nothing else. lovegu likegu ತುಂಭ ವ್ಯತ್ಯಾಸ ಇದೆ. I hope you know it. 

     ಸ್ವಲ್ಪ ದಿನಗಳ ಹಿಂದೆಯಿoದ ಒಳ್ಳೆ ಕೆಲಸ plus ಒಳ್ಳೆ package ಇರೋ ಕೆಲಸ ಹುಡುಕ್ತಿದ್ದೆ. ಅಂತದೊಂದು offer ಸಿಕ್ತು. Actually it was a superb offer. Sakath package. ನಾನು job resign ಮಾಡಿ notice periodnallidde. ಈ ವಿಷಯ ಮನೆಯಲ್ಲಿ ಹೇಳಿದ ತಕ್ಷಣ ಎಲ್ಲಾರ್ ಬಾಯಲ್ಲೂ ಒಂದೇ ಮಾತು: "ಇನ್ನೇನು ಒಳ್ಳೆ ಕೆಲಸ ಒಳ್ಳೆ ಪ್ಯಾಕೇಜ್ ಲೈಫ್ ಫುಲ್ settle. ಬೇಗ ಮದ್ವೆ ಮಾಡ್ಕೋ. ". ನಿನಗೆ ಯಾರಾದ್ರೂ ಇಸ್ಟ ಆಗಿದ್ರೆ ಹೇಳು ನಮಗೇನು problem ಇಲ್ಲ ಅಂತಾನೂ ಹೆಳ್ದ್ರು. ಎಲ್ಲಿ ಹೋದ್ರು ಬರೀ ಮದುವೆ ಮಾತೆ ನಡೀತಿತ್ತು. ನಾನ್ ಯಾವತ್ತೂ ನನ್ ಮದುವೆ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ಯೋಚನೆ ಮಾಡಿದ್ದೆ ಇಲ್ಲ. ಮನೆಯವರೆಲ್ಲ force ಮಾಡಿದಾಗ ಎಲ್ಲೋ ಒಂದು ಕಡೆ ಅವಳಿಗೆ ನನ್ನ ಇಸ್ಟದ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ತಿಳಿಸೊಣ ಅನ್ಸ್ತು. In reality ನಾವು ಎಸ್ಟೆ bold ಆಗಿ ಇದ್ರು ಕೆಲವು ವಿಷಯಗಳಲ್ಲಿ ಅದೇ boldness ಇರೋದಿಲ್ಲ. ನನಗೆ ಹೇಳೋ ದೈರ್ಯ ಬರ್ಲೇ ಇಲ್ಲ.

 

    ಆವತ್ತು ನನ್ನ last working day. ಅದ್ಯಾಕೋ ಮನಸು ತುಂಬಾ ಗೊಂದಲದಲ್ಲಿ ಸಿಕ್ಕಾಕೊಂಡಿತ್ತು. ನನಗೆ ನಾನೇ ಹೇಳ್ಕೊಂಡೆ "ಈ ವಿಷಯ ಅವಳತ್ರ ಹೇಳೋದು ತಪ್ಪಲ್ಲ, ಆದರೆ ಹೇಳ್ದೆ ಇದ್ರೆ ಹೇಳಿಲ್ವಲ್ಲ ಅನ್ನೋ feeling. Better ಹೇಳೆಬಿಡೋಣ ಅನ್ಸ್ತು. ಒಪ್ಕೊಂಡ್ರೆ ಕುಶಿ ಇಲ್ಲ ಅಂದ್ರೆ thats okay. ಈ ವಿಷಯದಲ್ಲಿ force ಮಾಡೋದ್ರಿಂದ ಪ್ರಯೋಜನ ಇಲ್ಲ. Plus ಇವತ್ತು ನನ್ನ last working day. ಅವಳು ಒಪ್ಪಿಲ್ಲ ಅಂದ್ರೆ ಮತ್ತೆ ಅವಳನ್ನ ನೋಡಿ uncomfortable feel ಆಗೋ situation ಬರೋದಿಲ್ಲ. finally ದೈರ್ಯ ಮಾಡ್ದೆ.

ಹೇಗೆ ಹೇಳೋದು ಅಂತ ಯೋಚನೆ ಮಾಡ್ದೆ. Facebookನಲ್ಲಿ message ಮಾಡ್ಲಾ ಅಥವ ಆಫೀಸ್ mail ಅಥವ communicator[ ಆಫೀಸ್ ಚಾಟ್ ಬಾಕ್ಸ್]. Official mail IDಗೆ mail ಮಾಡೋಣ ಅಂತ ಡಿಸೈಡ್ ಮಾಡ್ದೆ. ಹೇಗೆ ಹೇಳಲಿ ಏನು type ಮಾಡ್ಲಿ. ಕೊನೆಗೆ ಈ ಕೆಳಕಂಡಂತೆ ಬರೆದೆ.

To: Sahithya_Something@Someoffice.com

Hi,

I don’t know how to say. I just like you. Let me know your opinion.

Regards,

Diganth

Mail ಕಳಿಸಿದೆ. mail ಕಳಿಸಿ ಆದಮೇಲೆ ಯಾಕೋ ತುಂಭಾ formal ಅಂಡ್ simple ಅನ್ಸ್ತು. ಈಗ ಅನ್ಕೊಂಡು ಏನು ಪ್ರಯೊಜ಼ನ. train ಹೋದ್ಮೇಲೆ ticket ತೊಗೊಳೋ ಹಾಗೆ ಅನ್ಕೊನ್ಡು ಸುಮ್ನಾದೆ. mailbox refresh ಮಾಡ್ತ ಕೂತಿದ್ದೆ.

friends ಎಲ್ಲಾ ಯಾಕೆ ಅಸ್ಟೊಂದು ಬೇಜಾರ್ ಮಾಡ್ಕೊಂಡಿದೀಯ ಅಂತ ಕೇಳ್ತಿದ್ರು. Last day ಅಂತ ಇಸ್ಟೊಂದು emotional ಆಗ್ಬೇಡ ಅಂತೆಲ್ಲ ಅಂತಿದ್ರು. ಆದರೆ ನನ್ನ ಬೇಜಾರಿಗೆ ನಿಜವಾದ ಕಾರಣ ಅವಳಿಂದ ಬಂದಂತ negative response. ಯಾವಾಗ್ಲೂ ನನ್ friends ನನ್ನ ಹೀರೊ, handsome dude ಅಂತ ಹೇಳ್ತ ನಿಂಗೇನಪ್ಪ ಹುಡ್ಗೀರು line ಅಲ್ಲಿ ನಿಲ್ತಾರೆ ಅಂತೆಲ್ಲ ರೇಗಿಸ್ತಿದ್ರು. ಅದನ್ನ ನೆನೆಸಿಕೊಂಡು ಒಂದೆಡೆ ವ್ಯಂಗ್ಯದ ನಗು ಮಾತೊಂದೆಡೆ ದುಃಖ ಆಗ್ತಿತ್ತು. ಮರಳಿ ಬಾರದಿರಲಿ ಮರೆಯಲಾಗದ ನೋವು ಮರೆಯಾಗುವ ತನಕ ಎಂದೆನುತ ಅಲ್ಲಿಂದ ಹೊರಟೆ.

[ಈಗ ಒಂದು short break ತೊಗೊಳೊಣ. ಎಲ್ಲಾ ಹುಡುಗರಿಗೆ ಈ ನಿಮ್ಮ ದಿಗಂತನಿಂದ ಒಂದು message. If its sounds logical ಸ್ವೀಕರಿಸಿ ಇಲ್ಲ ಅಂದ್ರೆ ಬಿಟ್ಟುಬಿಡಿ.  ಲೈಫ್ನಲಿ ಕೆಲವು failures ಆದಾಗ like ಲವ್ failure etc, ಅದ್ಯಾಕೋ ತುಂಭಾ ಹುಡುಗ್ರು smoking, heavy drinking ಶುರು ಮಡ್ಕೊಂಡ್-ಬಿಡ್ತಾರೆ. ಯಾಕೆ ಅಂತ ಕೇಳಿದ್ರೆ ಕುಶಿ ಕೊಡುತ್ತೆ, ನೋವನ್ನ ಮರೆಸುತ್ತೆ ಅಂತೆಲ್ಲಾ ಅಂತಾರೆ. ಈ ಸಣ್ಣ ಕುಶಿ ಚಿಕ್ಕ ನೋವನ್ನ ಮಾರಿಯುವುದ್ದಕೋಸ್ಕರ ಮುಂದೆ ಆಗುವ ದೊಡ್ಡ ಪರಿಣಾಮಗಳನ್ನ ಮಾರಿಯುವುದು ಸರಿಯೆ ? ತಡಿಯಲಾರದ ನೋವನ್ನ ಈ ದುರಬ್ಯಾಸಗಳು ತನ್ದುಬಿಡುತ್ತದೆ. ಎಚ್ಚರಿಕೆ ಫ್ರೆಂಡ್ಸ್. Nothing is impossible ಅಂತಾರೆ. ಅದೆಲ್ಲ ದೊಡ್ಡ ಸುಳ್ಳು. ಆದರೆ smoking/heavy drinks quit ಮಾಡೋದು possible.]

ಎಲ್ಲಾ ಇತ್ತು ಆದ್ರೂ ಕುಶಿ ಇಲ್ಲ ಅಂತ ಆಗಾಗ ಅನ್ಸ್ತಿತ್ತು. ಆಗಂತ ಹೆಜ್ಜೆ ಗುರುತನ್ನ ನೋಡ್ತಾ ನಿಲ್ಲಕ್ಕಾಗುತ್ತಾ. ಹೇಗೋ life ನಡೀತಿತ್ತು. ಅದು ನನ್ನ ಬದುಕಿನ ಕುಶಿಯ ಹುಡುಕಾಟದ ಕ್ಷಣಗಳಾಗಿತ್ತು. ಮನೆಯಲ್ಲಿ ಮತ್ತೆ ಮದುವೆಯ ಮಾತುಕತೆಗಳು. ಒಮ್ಮೊಮ್ಮೆ ನಮ್ಮ ಕುಶಿಗಿಂತ ಬೇರೆಯವರ ಕುಶಿಗೋಸ್ಕರ ಬದುಕಬೇಕಾದಂತಹ ಸಂದರ್ಬಗಳು ಬಂದುಬಿಡುತ್ತೆ. ಅಂತದೊಂದು ಸಂದರ್ಬ ನನಗೂ ಎದುರಾಯಿತು. 

ಅದೇನು ಆನೋದ್ದು ಮುಂದೆ ಗೋತಾಗುತ್ತೆ.

ಕೆಲವು ತಿಂಗಳುಗಳ ನಂತರ....................................

ನಾನು ನನ್ನ ಉರಾದ ಶೃಂಗೇರಿಗೆ trainನಲ್ಲಿ ಪ್ರಯಾಣ ಮಾಡ್ತಿದ್ದೆ. ಕೈಯಲ್ಲಿ ಒಂದು novel ಇತ್ತು. ಈ ಮದ್ಯೆ novels ಓದೋ ಹವ್ಯಾಸನು ಶುರು ಮಾಡಿದ್ದೆ. ಕೆಲವೊಮ್ಮೆ ಎಲ್ಲರಿಗಿಂತ ಉತ್ತಮ ಸ್ನೇಹ ಪುಸ್ತಕಗಳು ಕೊಡುತ್ತವೆ. ಬಿರುಸಾದ ಗಾಳಿ, novel, ಜೊತೆಗೆ Tea. ಎಂತ combination ಅಲ್ವಾ ? Train speed ಕಡಿಮೆ ಆಯ್ತು ಯಾಕೆ ಅಂದ್ರೆ ಮುಂದಿತ್ತು ಒಂದು station.  

ನೀರು ತರೋದಕ್ಕೆ ಅಂತ ಕೆಲಗಿಳಿದು ಹೋದೆ. ಹೋಗಿ ಬರುವಸ್ಟರಲ್ಲಿ ನನಗೆ ಕಂಡಿದ್ದು ಬೇರಾರು ಅಲ್ಲ ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ. ಅವಳು ನನ್ನ compartment , ನನ್ನ seatna ಎದುರೆಡೆ ಕೂತಿದ್ಲು. ಅವಳನ್ನ ನೋಡಿದ ತಕ್ಷಣ ಒಂತರಾ ಮುಜುಗರದ ಭಾವನೆ ಉಂಟಾಯಿತು. ನನ್ ಸೀಟ್ ಹತ್ರ ಹೋದ್ರೆ ಅವಳಿಗೂ uncomfortable ಆಗಬಹುದು ಅಂತ door ಹತ್ರಾನೇ ನಿಂತಿದ್ದೆ. ಆದ್ರೆ yestottu ಅಂತ ನಿಲ್ಲೋದು.  

ದೈರ್ಯ ಮಾಡಿ ಹೋದೆ. ನಾನು ಹೋದ ತಕ್ಷಣ ಅವಳು ನನ್ನನ್ನು ನೋಡಿ ತಲೆ ಬಗ್ಗಿಸಿಬಿಟ್ಟಳು. ಅವಳು ಮತ್ತೆ ತಲೆ ಎತ್ತಲೆ ಇಲ್ಲ . I could see from her face that she was not feeling comfortable. ಅವಳು ಹಾರಮಾಗಿ ಪ್ರಯಾಣ ಮಾಡಬೇಕಾದರೆ ನಾನು ಅಲ್ಲಿಂದ ಎದ್ದು ಹೋಗುವುದು ಒಂದೇ ದಾರಿ ಅಲ್ಲ. ನಾನು ಅವಳ ಹೆಸರನ್ನು ಕರೆದೆ, ಆದರೆ ಅವಳು ಕೇಳಿಸದ ಹಾಗೆ ನಟನೆ ಮಾಡಿದಳು. ಮತ್ತೊಮ್ಮೆ ಜೋರಾಗಿ ಕರೆದು ನನ್ನ bagನಲ್ಲಿದ್ದ ಕಾರ್ಡನ್ನು [card] ಅವಳಿಗೆ ಕೊಟ್ಟೆ. ಅವಳು ಸ್ವೀಕರಿಸಲು ಇಂಜರಿಗಿದಳು. ಆಗ ನಾನು ಅವಳಿಗೆ ಹೇಳಿದೆ ಅದು ನನ್ನ Engagement invitation ಎಂದು.

ನಾ ಹಾಗೆಂದು ಹೇಳಿದ ತಕ್ಷಣ ಅವಳ ತುಟಿಯಂಚಿನಲಿ ನಗು ಮೂಡಿತು. ಅವಳಿಗೆ ಅನ್ನಿಸಿರಬೇಕು "Oh he is engaged eh, then he won’t trouble me” ಅಂತ. ಅವಳು ಮುಗುಳ್ನಗುತ್ತಾ congrats ಎಂದಳು. ನಾನು return smile ಒಂದನ್ನು ಕೊಟ್ಟು thanks ಅಂದೆ. ಇಸ್ಟೊತ್ತು ಸುಮ್ಮನಿದ್ದ ಅವಳು ನಾನು Engaged ಅಂದ ತಕ್ಷಣ ಮಾತಿನ ಸುರಿಮಳೆಗಳನ್ನು ಶುರು ಮಾಡಿದಳು. 

ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: ಹುಡುಗಿ ಏನ್ ಮಾಡ್ತಿದಾಳೆ ?
ನಾನು: MBA ಮಾಡ್ಕೊಂಡಿದಾಳೆ. ಕೆಲಸ ಮಡ್ತಿಲ್ಲ.

ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: ಹೌದ. nice.

ನಾನು: ಮತ್ತೆ .... ಅಲ್ಲೇ work ಮಡ್ತಿದೀರ ಇನ್ನೂ ?

ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: ಹೌದು. ನೀವು ಈಗ ಎಲ್ಲಿ ಕೆಲಸ ಮಡೊದು ?

ನಾನು: ನಂದೇ ಒಂದು company open ಮಡಿದೀನಿ.

ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: OMG. Really ? ಯಾವ ಕಂಪನೀ ? ಏನ್ ಹೆಸರು ?

ನಾನು: ಇಲ್ಲ :D ಸುಮ್ಮನೆ ಹೇಳ್ದೆ ಅಸ್ಟೇ. ನಾನು UVW companynalli ಕೆಲಸ ಮಡ್ತಿದೀನಿ.

ಅವಳು Killer look ಕೊಟ್ಳು. ನಾನು ನಗ್ತಾಇದ್ದೆ.

ನಾನು: ಎಲ್ಲಾ ಸರಿ, ನಾನು ಅಲ್ಲಿ work ಮಡ್ತಿಲ್ಲ ಅನ್ನೋದು ನಿಮಗೆ ಹೇಗೆ ಗೋತಾಯ್ತು ? :)
ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: ಅಯ್ಯೋ .. ಸಿಕಾಕೊಂಡೇ.
ನಾನು: ಹೇಳಿ .. ಹೇಗೆ ?
ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: ಹಂಗೆ.. ಹುಡ್ಗೀರ್ಗೆ ಕೆಲವು ಮೂಲಗಳಿಂದ info ಸಿಗುತ್ತೆ.
ನಾನು: ಅಂದ್ರೆ ,, ನಾನು ನಿಮಗೆ propose ಮಡಿದ್ದನ್ನ ಒಂದ್ ಹತ್ತು ಜನಕ್ಕೆ ಹೆಳಿದೀರ ಅಂತ ಆಯ್ತು.
ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: ಹತ್ತು ಇಲ್ಲ. ಒಂದ್ ಇಬ್ಬರಿಗೆ ಹೆಳಿದೀನಿ ಅಸ್ಟೇ.. Very trusted friends. ಅವರು ಯಾರಿಗೂ ಹೆಳಲ್ಲ :)
ನಾನು: ನಂಬೋ ವಿಷ್ಯ.. 
ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: ಹೌದು.. ಎಲ್ಲಾ moviesನಲ್ಲೂ ಹುಡುಗರು ಹುಡುಗಿ ಓಪ್ಲಿಲ್ಲ ಅಂದ್ರೆ ಯಾಕೆ ಅಂತ reason ಕೇಳ್ತಾರೆ, ಆದರೆ ನಾನು ಇಲ್ಲ ಅಂದಾಗ ನೀವು ಯಾಕೆ ಅಂತ ಕೆಳಲೆ ಇಲ್ಲ.
ನಾನು: Reason ಗೊತ್ತಿರುವಾಗ ಕೇಳಿ ಏನ್ ಪ್ರಯೋಜನ..
ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: eh ? ರೀಸನ್ ಗೋತಾ ?
ನಾನು: 1. ಮನೆನಲ್ಲಿ ಒಪ್ಪಲ್ಲ 2. ನೀವು already commit 3. ಹುಡುಗ ಈಸ್ಟ ಇಲ್ಲ. Reason ಈ ಮುರರಲ್ಲಿ ಯಾವುದಾದರೂ ಒಂದು ಇರುತ್ತೆ. third one ಆಗಕ್ಕೆ chance ಇಲ್ಲ ಬಿಡಿ :)
ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: ಅಬ್ಬಬ್ಬಾ .. ಏನ್ Analysis.
ನಾನು: :) Personal ವಿಷ್ಯಾನ ಕೇಳೋದು ಸರಿ ಅಲ್ಲ ಅನ್ಸ್ತು,, ಅದಕ್ಕೆ ಕೆಳಿಲ್ಲ.
ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: ಆದರೆ ಈ reasons ಯಾವುದು ಅಲ್ಲ........ 
ನಾನು: Oh..
ಅವಳು ಕಿಟಕಿಯ ಕಡೆ ಮುಖ ಮಾಡಿ ಕುಳಿತಳು.
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ಕೆಲವು ನಿಮಿಶಗಳ ನಂತರ
ನಾನು: ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ, ಕೇಳಬಾರದು ಅನ್ಕೊಂಡಿದ್ದೆ.. ಆದರೂ ಕೇಳ್ತಿದೀನಿ. ನಾನು ಯಾಕೆ ಅಂತ ಕಾರಣ ತಿಳ್ಕೊಬಹುದಾ ?
ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: ಕೆಲವು ವಿಷಯಗಳನ್ನ ಯಾರಿಗೂ ಹೆಳ್ಕೊಳೊಕೆ ಆಗಲ್ಲ. ಹೇಳ್ಕೋಬೇಕು ಅನ್ಸುತ್ತೆ , ಆದರೆ ಹೇಳಿದ ಮೇಲೆ ದುಃಖ ಆಗುತ್ತೆ. ಹೇಳಿದರು ಪ್ರಯೊಜನ ಇರೋದಿಲ್ಲ, ಯಾಕೆ ಅಂದ್ರೆ ಉತ್ತರ ಇಲ್ಲದ ಪ್ರಶ್ನೆಗಳು ಹಲವಾರು.
ನಾನು: ಅವಳು ಹಾಗೆನುತ ಕಿಟಕಿಯ ಕಡೆ ಮುಖ ಮಾಡಿ ಕುಳಿತಳು. ಅವಳ ಕಣ್ಣಂಚಿನಲಿ ಕಾಣುತಿತ್ತು ಚಿಕ್ಕದೊಂದು ಹನಿಯು.  
ನಾನು: ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ, ನೀವು ಯಾರನ್ನೂ ಪ್ರೀತಿಸಬಾರದು ಅಂತ decide ಮಡಿದೀರ ? ಅಥವ ಮದುವೆ ಆಗಬಾರದು ಅಂತ decide ಮಾಡಿದೀರ ?
ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: ಗೊತಿಲ್ಲ. ...
ನಾನು: ಯಾರಾದ್ರೂ ಬಂದು ನಿಮ್ಮತ್ರ "ನಿಮ್ problem ಏನೇ ಇರಲಿ, ನನಗೆ ಪರವಾಗಿಲ್ಲ.. ನೀವು ನಿಮ್ problem ನನ್ನ ಹತ್ತಿರ ಹೇಳ್ಕೊಂಡ್ರೆ solve ಮಡೊಕೆ try ಮಡ್ತೀನಿ.. ಆ problem solve ಮಾಡೋಕೆ ಆಗೋದೇ ಇಲ್ಲ ಅಂದ್ರೆ ಅಥವ ಅದರಿಂದ ಬದುಕುವುದಕ್ಕೆ ಆಗೋದೇ ಇಲ್ಲ ಅಂದ್ರೆ ಮಾತ್ರ ಇಲ್ಲ ಅನ್ನೀ" ಅಂದ್ರೆ ಏನ್ ಹೇಳ್ತೀರಾ or else if you get a guy who madly loves you what are you going to tell ? 

ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: ತುಂಭಾ ಕಷ್ಟಡ ಪ್ರಶ್ನೆಗಳನ್ನ ಕೆಳ್ತಾಇದೀರ. ಇದಕ್ಕೆ ಒಂದು ಪದದಲ್ಲಿ ಉತ್ತರಿಸಲು ಸಾದ್ಯ ಇಲ್ಲ.
ನಾನು: ನಾನು ಒಂದು ಪದದಲ್ಲಿ ಉತ್ತರಿಸಿ ಅಂತ ಹೇಳಿಲ್ಲ ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ.
ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: hmm.. ಹಿಂದಿನದ್ದೆಲ್ಲಾ ಮರೆತು ಹೊಸ ಪ್ರಯಾಣಕ್ಕೆ ಅವಕಾಶ ಸಿಕ್ಕಿದರೆ ಕಂಡಿತ ಒಪ್ಕೊತೀನಿ.
ನಾನು: ಅಂದ್ರೆ you will accept that person ?
ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: Yes.
ನಾನು: ಹಾಗಾದರೆ ನಿಮಗೆ ನಾನು ಮತ್ತೊಮ್ಮೆ propose ಮಾಡ್ತಾಇದೀನಿ ಈಗ. ನಿಮ್ problem ಏನೇ ಇರಲಿ , ನಿಮ್ಮ past ಏನೇ ಇರಲಿ ನನಗೆ ಅದು ಬೇಡ. ನನ್ನ proposal ಒಪ್ಕೋತೀರಾ ?
ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ: WHAT ? ತಮಾಷೆ ಮಾಡ್ಬೆಡಿ ! ಎಲ್ಲದಕ್ಕೂ ಒಂದು limit ಇದೆ. You are Engaged. Mind it. ಇದು movie ಅಲ್ಲ, ಹೇಗೆ ಬೇಕೋ ಹಾಗೆ edit ಮಾಡೋಕೆ.
ನಾನು: I am not Engaged. ಅದು ನನ್ನ Engagement card ಅಲ್ಲ. ನನ್ನ school friendದು. ಅವನ ಹೆಸರು ಕೂಡ ದಿಗಂತ್. ಆದರೆ ಆ invitation deepಆಗಿ observe ಮಾಡಿದ್ರೆ ನಿಮಗೆ ಗೋತಾಗ್ತಿತ್ತು. but ನೀವು ಓಪನ್ ಮಾಡಿ ನೊಡ್ಲಿಲ್ಲ. ನನ್ನ ನೀವು ನೋಡಿದಾಗ ತುಂಭಾ uncomfortable ಆಗಿ ಕಾಣಿಸ್ತಿದ್ದ್ರಿ. ನಾನು ನನ್ನ ಉರಿಗೆ ಹೋಗ್ತಿದ್ದಿದ್ದು ಈ engagement attend ಮಾಡೊದಕ್ಕೆ ಮತ್ತು ನನ್ನ ತಂದೆ ತಾಯಿಗೆ ಇಸ್ಟವಾದಂತ ಒಂದು marriage proposal ನೂಡೊದಕ್ಕೆ.

ನಾ ಈಗೆಂದ ತಕ್ಷಣ ಅವಳಿಂದ ಏನು response ಬಂದಿಲ್ಲ.

ನಾನು: ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ, ನೀವು ಈಗಲೇ ಅಭಿಪ್ರಾಯ ತಿಳಿಸಿ ಅಂತ ನಾನು ಬಲವಂತ ಮಾಡೋದಿಲ್ಲ. ಯೋಚನೆ ಮಾಡಿ. ನಾನು ನಿಮಗೆ max 15 days time ಕೊಡ್ತೀನಿ. ಇದು ನನ್ನ Visiting card.. phone number, ಮನೆ ವಿಳಾಸ ಎಲ್ಲ ಇದೆ. ನಿಮ್ಮ ಅಭಿಪ್ರಾಯ ಹದಿನೈದು ದಿನಗಳ ಒಳಗೆ ತಿಳಿಸಿ. YES ಅಥವಾ NO ಏನೇ ಆಗಿದ್ರು ತಿಳಿಸೋದು ಮರೆಯಬೇಡಿ.

ಕಾಯ್ತಾ ಇರ್ತೀನಿ. ಮರಿಬೆಡಿ.

ಮತ್ತದೇ ಮೌನ ಆವರಿಸಿತು. ಅವಳು ಕಿಟಕಿಯ ಕಡೆ ಮುಖ ಮಾಡಿ ಕುಳಿತಳು. ನನಗೆ ಅಲ್ಲಿ ನಿರಾಳವಾಗಿ ಕುಳಿತುಕೊಳ್ಳಲು ಸಾದ್ಯವಾಗಲಿಲ್ಲ. ಅಲ್ಲಿಂದ ಎದ್ದು ಬೇರೆ compartmentಗೆ ಹೊದೆ. ಹೋಗುವ ಮುನ್ನ ಅವಳಿಗೆ Bye ಎಂದೇ. ಅವಳು ಎಲ್ಲಿ ಯಾಕೆ ಅಂತ ಕೆಳಲಿಲ್ಲ. Just Bye ಅಂದ್ಲು.

ಆಕರ್ಷಣೆ ಪ್ರೀತಿ ಆಗಬಹುದಲ್ಲವ ? ಅದಕ್ಕೆ ನನ್ನ ಕಥೆಯೇ ಸಾಕ್ಷಿ..

"ಅವಳ ಉತ್ತರಕ್ಕಾಗಿ ಕಾಯುತ ಕುಳಿತಿರುವೆ , ಉತ್ತರ ಏನೇ ಇರಲಿ ಜೀವನ ನಿಲ್ಲುವುದಿಲ್ಲ, ಆದರೂ ಆಶಿಸುತಿರುವೆ ಅವಳು ಒಪ್ಪಿಕೊಳ್ಳಲೆಂದು.

ಹೃದಯದ ಮಿಡಿತ ಕೆಳಲು ಎಸ್ಟು ಸುಂದರ..
ಆದರೆ ಅದೇ ಮಿಡಿತ ಉತ್ತರಕ್ಕಾಗಿ ಕಾಯುವಾಗ ಭಯಾನಕ..
ಈ ಮಿಡಿತಗಳನ್ನು ಹಿಡಿತದಲ್ಲಿ ಇರಿಸುವ ಪ್ರಯತ್ನದಲಿ ನಾ ಸಾಗುತಿರುವೆನು."

To all readers of this story. Thanks a lot for following. Whether Sahitya agreed to his proposal or not is upto your imagination. I decided not to conclude it because when I asked my friends who were following this story about "what kind of climax you guys like ?" Few said happy ending and few said sad ending. As this is my first story I do not wanted to disappoint the readers. I have left it to their choice/wish.

When I decided to write a story I really did not have any flow. Everyday I was thinking how to proceed. But whatever I think that would have shown in one or the other movie or in some novels. Story writing is really a tough job. We keep commenting on movies saying no story/ nothing new, etc. Give a try to write a story. You will experience the same as what I said. Hats off  to the authors who think out of the box and write amazing stories.

The journey in writing this story was amazing. Thanks to all who gave feedbacks.

Journey $ Bangalore -> $akLe$pur -> Ibbani Resort $

Confused.. Yes, It all started with Con-FUSION.  Place, People, Package, Plan. Uffff.. There were lots of questions running through the head while there was nothing in place at that moment. Most of us were in a state of dropping out of the journey as we were fused with Confusion. Yet, we decided to go because at times, Confusion is “sometimes” happiness.

Destination was set to Ibbani resort, Sakleshpur. People from five different project teams were interested to join the journey. Combined together it was a total of 38 members. Plan was finalized finally.

We kick started our journey from Bangalore NH4 and continued to NH48. As we moved further, music started grooving through everyone’s head and body. Mind was very happy but stomach was crying for breakfast. So we had a pit stop at a restaurant named Swathi. Nothing made us as happy as a sound breakfast at that moment after which we continued our journey towards our destination.

Most of the travelers play this game called "Dumb Charades”, and we were no exception. Everyone was excited to play the game as no matter how many times you play it, nobody can beat this game as the time beater. Cheers, screaming, action, and guess work - We could all feel the energy boosting within ourselves and I am sure each one of us enjoyed it. As the journey continued flavors of coffee, areca , pepper and cardamom was filled everywhere. Yes, it was a sign of letting us realize that we were in $akLe$pur. $akLe$pur is surrounded and filled with lofty green hills full of coffee, cardamom, pepper and areca plantations. A sense of happiness started running through us that we have left the busy, congested metropolitan life behind as we travelled ahead. We were close to nature and away from network. On one hand, we were happy that we dint have network but on the other, we were wondering on how to communicate back home. We could feel the hill station even more by the way the bus started jerking backward. Roads were so narrow that no two vehicles could travel at a time. If the bus came to a halt then it would have been a disaster, as it was extremely hot and nobody wanted to take the heat. But luckily nothing as such happened and we reached our destination without any glitch.

My first impression about Ibbani resort is "Green everywhere". Ibbani is located in a slope area and is surrounded by chain of mountains. Cottages were neat and clean. But we were a little surprised not to see any fans inside cottage and had to wait till night to get an answer for it. Food was good, especially the non vegetarian dishes. Activities included mud volleyball, carom, cricket, badminton, rope walk, swing, trekking, Jeep drive, friendly cards, camp fire, rain dance and few water activities. In this trip, everyone had the liberty to choose their activity unlike in office where the tasks or activities are decided by the leader ;). Depending on the energy and interests people selected activities to get in. It was then snacks and Coffee/Tea time. To be frank, since the place is known for coffee plantation, the tastes of coffee dint match our expectation.

We then decided to go for trekking and started stepping up. As we were stepping up, our cell phones started vibrating, Yo.. We got signal and no one missed the chance to call home. Trekking was not as easy as we expected, it was dangerous. We were accompanied by a guide and three trained dogs. The movie 6-5=2 has impacted people so much that many were talking about it during trekking and were worried what if we don’t return back, as the place looks similar to the one in the movie. We ended up taking few snaps at the hill point and headed back. 

We thought of playing friendly game of cards though we didn't know how to play them. We learnt how to play bluff and got addicted in the first show itself. This was followed by Camp fire, Antakshari and finally Dinner. We felt the drastic change in weather from hot day to extremely cold night. And nature finally answered our question of why there were no fans in the resort rooms. Resort was covered with fog, hence the name Ibbani, which means Fog (in Kannada). We were all exhausted and done for the day and rested.

Next day started with black tea and breakfast. We decided to go for Jeep Safari. Initially we thought it’s just a drive through the plantation areas. Believe me, this was the best amongst all activities. It was a drive through forest area, Scary and Adventures. At certain points I was holding my breath literally and praying to reach the resort safely.

After the Jeep Safari came the sad part of the trip, packing and leaving for Bangalore. I totally enjoyed the trip with the energetic group.  All I could say is if you want to enjoy nature, fresh air and fog, visit Ibbani :). Truly refreshing place.

ಕಲೆ

ಕಲೆಯ ವಿಳಾಸ,
ಕಲೆಗಾರನ ಕೈಗಳೋ ?
ಕಲೆಯ ಅಂದ,
ಕಲೆಗಾರನ ವರ್ಣನೆಯೊ ?
ಕಲೆಯ ಕಲರವ,
ಕಲೆಗಾರನ ಕಲ್ಪನೆಯೊ ?
ಕಲೆಯಲ್ಲಿ ಕಣ್ಮರೆಯಾದ ನೊಟದ ಕವನ .....:) 



……Shilpa

ಅದಲು ಬದಲು

ಕನಸು ನನಸಾಗಲಿ ಎನ್ನುವರೊಳು
ನನಸು ಕನಸಾಗಲಿ ಎನ್ನುವರೆಸ್ಟೋ
ಕಹಿ ಸಿಹಿಯಾಗಲಿ ಎನ್ನುವರೊಳು
ಸಿಹಿ ಕಹಿಯಾಗಲಿ ಎನ್ನುವರೆಸ್ಟೋ
ಜೀವನದ ಅದಲು ಬದಲುಗಳೊಳು
ನಿನಗಾಹುದು ಹಿತ
ಅದಲೊ ಬದಲೋ...


……Shilpa

ಹಾಗೆ ಒಮ್ಮೊಮ್ಮೆ

ಸುಮ್ಮನೆ ಕುಳಿತಿರಲು ಬೆಚ್ಚನೆಯ ಹೊದಿಕೆಯೊಳಗೆ
ಕಿವಿಗಳು ಇಂಪಾಗಿರಲು ಗಾನ ಲಹರಿಯೊಳಗೆ
ನಲಿಯುತಿಹುದು ಮುಂಗುರುಳು ತಂಪಾದ ಗಾಳಿಯೊಳಗೆ
ಇದೆಲ್ಲಾ ಇದ್ದ ಮೇಲೆ ಸುಮ್ಮನಿರುವುದೆ ಮನಸು ?

ತೇಲುತಿರುವುದು ಮನಸ್ಸು ಕನಸುಗಳೊಳಗೆ .... :)

……Shilpa

Should I bother ?

From many days I was feeling to write about something which is very important in ones life as they grow on. The topic on which I wanted to write about was "Critics".

I often hear from people saying

• If I share my opinion what they may think, they may throw bad comments, they may laugh
• Few have very good talents but scared to showcase in public assuming people might not like it
• Few say everyone used to like my performance but I have stopped performing because people didn't like my last performance
• I am scared to loose, I cant listen to any negative words

Most of the people are scared of critics. I was no exception. But I have managed to come out of it to a great extent. This change didn't happen in a day. It takes time in understanding which critics to accept and value and which critics to ignore. 

For example, consider when I write an article on a topic and post it in my blog, a person who reads it first, comes and tells to me  that the article is very bad. Later many people come and tell to me that the article is very good. If I was worried too much about the comment thrown by the first person and removed the article from my blog I would have lost the interests of rest of the people who liked it. What doesn't liked by one may be liked  from someone else. You should be satisfied of your work, that's the greatest feeling one can have.

As one grows to great height managing critics become very crucial. Think about film stars, politicians, cricketers, business people, whatever they do people have a comment on to it. If they care too much on every action they cannot survive. If one is scared about critics he/she is the looser, it will not benefit in any way.

Finally a one liner about this "Value valid critics from Right people and ignore rest"

                                                                                                                    ……Shilpa

LUCIA, The Movie

I have often come across debates over movies while planning for a movie or during usual conversations. During these conversations I would generally feel bad if anybody comments about kannada movies. Though there are lot of flaws in kannada movies or the quality of the movies, I always tend to support kannada movies. But at the end reality speaks. Though there are very few exceptions, it’s always the majority that catch the eyes. But it still does not change the fact that kannada movies can be made better in future.

Some of the questions that would arise are: why is it so? Why many remakes? Why are the stories not good? Why is there lack of talents? Why are good movies not making success? Why do people comment negatively? And many more Whys..  We get angry when someone comments on kannada movies, but when the question comes about changing it by making better movies, many of us step back for various reasons and come to a conclusion that, it’s better to accept things the way it is than changing.

The main reason behind accepting things without changing or fighting against it is mainly due to lack of confidence, interest and dedication. If we have confidence, interest and dedication, we can definitely achieve our goals. And this is proved by LUCIA, The Movie Team.  

The makers of LUCIA have come out with their innovative and unique ideas that have now raised the standard of our regional movies. Plenty of reviews are available online and I will be happy to put down a few facts here.

• LUCIA- A Catchy title
• LUCIA is produced by Audience
• LUCIA has been produced with a budget of 51Lakhs
• LUCIA Cinematography has been done using Canon 5D DSLR Camera by Siddhartha Nuni
• LUCIA is a unique story line
• Through LUCIA artist Neenasam Satish has turned into a Hero and talented actress Sruthi Hariharan has been introduced.
• Through LUCIA Software Engineer Poornachandra Tejaswi has turned into a Music director
• Singer search was initiated for the LUCIA movie song “Thin Beda Kammi”
• LUCIA has introduced talented singers Naveen Sajju, Rakshith Nagarle, Bappi Blossom, Arun M C, Ananya Bhat, Udith Haritas., Sangeetha Rajeev, Dr.Nitin Acharya and Sparsha R K. 
• Orchestra singer Naveen Sajju has turned into a playback singer
• Audience has got LUCIA on-line distribution rights via hometalkies
• LUCIA has won best Audience Award at LIFF
• LUCIA movie team gave an opportunity to people to watch premier show through an on-line singing contest via Karoake garage.
• LUCIA has English sub-titles.
• For the first time I see Director of the movie clarifying doubts about LUCIA to the people on a live streaming in you-tube.
• LUCIA in Oscar’s race. 

Now you can watch this movie online by clicking on the below video.

 

 

I would like to congratulate Mr Pawan Kumar and his team for making a daring attempt. Wish all success to “The” Audience films. I am eagerly waiting to see many more good innovations from Audience film production house. All the best. 

 I would strongly suggest everyone to go and watch LUCIA to experience the difference. 

 Well if you don’t understand kannada, you can still watch it and enjoy it. I mentioned this in the facts, it has English Subtitles.

……Shilpa